Momma Moderation- Intro

I have been weight obsessed or denying weight obsession my whole life. It seems they gave me a pack of tampon and I started thinking I could make my life better if only a magical fat fairy would hit me with their skinny wand. I would have gotten better grades, people would like me better, my accounts would all be in order if only she would remold my body.


In fact, I would have done anything to have that perfect body. Except maybe diet and exercise with a real commitment. Join a gym, get a workout buddy, eat smaller meals, eat no carbs, eat low carbs, eat whatever you want, eat low fat, eat the right fats, eat less “junk”, eat more greens, eat everything in moderation, don’t eat, eat everything in sight and then shamefully regurgitate it at 3 am in a tearful tirade at the toilet.

There are words I have learned to hate:

• Moderation

• Motivation

• Athlete

• Exercise

These words made me feel guilty. Guilt born because I believed didn’t have the ability to moderate my own food intake or exercise habits. I felt bad that I would rather sit on the couch with a bag of chips then live a truly authentic life experience.

I have been hiding behind pounds and walls of flesh. I have been taking the elevator through life. I have never run a marathon. I haven’t even walked one as an adult. I have never maintained a healthy weight. I have never stayed on a diet for more than 6 months. I have never stayed on any exercise program for more than a few months. I have in good faith entered into countless attempts at change only to hide from that change when challenged.

I am afraid to commit to putting myself out there on a blog. I am afraid I will quit or publically fail. I am afraid I will not make that 6 month mark here that my old comfortable life and fat mom jeans will again swallow me up. I know I need to do this. I need accountability and I believe I am ready to commit to myself and to my readers. I will change the way I live my life and seek the health I know I deserve.

Please follow me on my journey! The only way I will be able to accomplish this journey is by working at it and being supported!



Regina